I first learned about gratitude journals when I was in high school, but only began to regularly keep one years later, after forming naming darkness finding light; I chose to share some of my entries from each week online. while it has become a practice that invites me to reflect on themes and connections over time, the very word gratitude was a major roadblock for me at first.
I had to separate gratitude’s meaning from the one it had taken on because of abuse. an abusive relative of mine favoured manipulation and instilling guilt in me and others to make us feel indebted to them; the individual desired to control the lives of others. in time, I came to feel I owed that person gratitude. it wasn’t long before they owned the term gratitude in my mind.