One theme I have noticed woven through conversations, others' ideas, my own reflections, and various life tidbits lately is vulnerability. There is a sense of trustworthiness in "this person" or "these people". And then there is the opening up at a deeper level. And then there is the - hopefully good - response. The acknowledgement of mutual trust. And then there is the new reality - one with less "walls" between one another.
The topics can be light to heavy, but it can still be a bit scary to open up in new ways to those we trust. "Sure, they've been okay with me up until this point, but if they knew this, they may not be okay with me anymore." That person, even that super-awesome-trusted person, may not yet know about that thing, or about that thing in that way. It can be scary to open up to trusted confidants in such an unmistakably clear and vulnerable way. As spring has arrived here in Winnipeg, it has brought an increase of birdsong. Various birds share their melodies from the trees and sky. Their presence, paired with the warmer temperatures, helps offer a gentle nudge to explore the spring weather.
While I love cross-country skiing and walking when practical, the chill and ice of winter means I spend more time indoors. Having gentle reminders of the changed season is a nice way to feel invited into the newness happening outside. The invitation is to come out, to play, to try something new. This piece concludes my year-long series The Meandering Reflective (TMR). Sometimes finishing a project or achieving a goal can leave us with a sense of "what next?" We reached the top of the metaphorical mountain, so where is there to go? We can enjoy the view, but we wonder if there isn't another journey we want to embark on. While I do feel a sense of accomplishment in completing this series, I also feel that it has given me insight into the direction I want to go with future written reflections on my website. My earliest posts in this series were very structured. Gradually, I found inspiration to step out from that framework and be more creative. I know that my rekindled inspiration will remain. I also feel more focused on how I would like to develop other areas of my website - my poetry, recipes, and short fiction sections. For example, I recently posted a new bread recipe, and I hope to find more inspiration for additional recipes in the future. I also have been finding more inspiration for creative endeavours beyond my website and am optimistic about their future as well. Thank you for reading along through this reflection series. Chelsea Sosiak, Owl Tree Whimsy In the closing months of 2023, I began preparing to make some positive personal changes. Though I knew logically that these changes were indeed helpful, I felt somewhat hesitant as well. These changes were very likely to be rather significant. My hesitancy stemmed from this certainty of newness. While the new reality I would be entering into was safe, it was different. I took time to reflect on the roots of my hesitancy in order to help myself feel safe following through with the changes. Reflecting helped me feel more optimistic about and open to the new reality. I felt not only more confident that changes would occur, but I grew excited about the prospect. I had allowed myself permission to make significant personal change. Being aware of and working through feelings of hesitancy or fear isn't always simple. It can take time and gradual work to build safety and certainty within ourselves. But if we want to make positive changes, working to overcome things which hold us back is necessary. Once I had given myself permission, the changes began to gradually occur. This process has involved hard work and perseverance. I am proud of choosing to make these changes and following through with them. I have learned more about myself and my capacity for renewal. Looking back, the difference has been significant, but the change went at a comfortable pace. A sustainable pace helped the changes become permanent by giving time and space to adjust to the new reality. |