Owl Tree Whimsy
  • Recipes
  • Serial Boxes
  • Writing
    • Poetry
    • Reflections
    • Short Fiction

Reflections


Reflections Index

My Crochet "Hexiket" Project

1/4/2023

 
Picture
My crochet blanket - my "hexiket". Dimensions: 4'x6' with 12" hexagons.

As 2022 drew to a close, I completed my crochet blanket. Starting November 1st, I crocheted almost every day. On December 22nd, my hexagons were done. Then I spent a week sewing everything together. My “hexiket”, as I affectionately named the project, is now a cozy addition to our living space. 

My hexiket project was planned in 2018. That spring, after I named my bisexuality, I decided to make a crochet blanket in bi colours. I loved the hexagon design, found a pattern, and purchased the yarn. Everything was logistically set. The only thing I lacked was motivation.

I already knew how to crochet, having been taught by one of my late grandmothers. But it was challenging to accept I’d be refreshing my skills without her. I tried practicing the individual crochet stitches the pattern required. I then found videos on how to create an entire hexagon. The breakthrough came when I found a well-paced hexagon tutorial video. From there, my hexagon-making flourished!

Small but mighty.

7/29/2022

 
​She had done nothing wrong
and she waited for assurance of that fact. 
She waited for the chance to speak,
to have others know the truth.

She worried she had done something wrong,
worried it was somehow her fault,
worried she had not done enough,
worried she had done too much.

When she began to tell others,
nobody gave her all the assurance,
but they shared in her truth;
good ones carried the truth alongside her.

Read More

Making Room For Me

7/6/2022

 
Picture

​​I’ve previously discussed my experience of surviving abusive people, in my pieces “I have always been worthy.” and “subtle poisons”. While my healing journey from abuse began over a decade ago, this past year has been particularly rich in new progress. From the day in 2006 that I broke up with the guy who had been abusing me, I began to plant seeds of love for myself. Some of these seeds took a while to sprout. Some had to be hidden from other abusers in my life. But now, with more healthy and safe people in my life, there is room for many healing flowers to bloom.

Read More

I have always been worthy.

12/22/2021

 
Picture

This piece discusses my healing progress as a survivor of sexual abuse. Clarification of terminology, as well as links to further information and support resources, are provided in the "Definitions and Support Resources" box below.

Definitions and Support Resources

It is the decision of each person who has experienced sexual violence​ to personally identify how they choose (victim, survivor, etc.) Each person has the right to share their story if, when, and to the extent they choose.

​
What is sexual assault?
Sexual assault is any unwanted sexual act done by one person to another. Sexual assault is never OK and if it’s happened to you, know it’s not your fault.

A person may be a victim of sexual assault if they’ve been involved in any type of sexual activity without giving their permission or saying it’s OK (this is known as consent). This includes any unwanted touching of a sexual nature such as kissing, fondling, oral sex or intercourse.

Sexual assault is an act of violence committed by a person in order to feel power over another person. It can come in different forms
- quote from the article: "What is sexual assault?" by Kids Help Phone (Canada)


What is sexual abuse?
Sexual abuse is any sexual behavior that is unwanted and that is carried out without consent from both partners. While force or coercion is usually involved, any kind of pressure is still considered sexual abuse. This may also include trying to control your own decisions about your sexuality and reproductive rights.

Here are some examples of what sexual abuse can look like:

Physically forcing you to have sex.

Coercing you to have sex or making you feel guilty for not wanting to by saying things like: “That’s what girlfriends do;” “If you loved me you would;” “You’re such a prude;” “But you wanted it the other night” or “But you did ______ with your last girlfriend.”...

Unwanted kissing or touching....
- quote from the article: "What Does Teen Dating Abuse Look Like?" by the State of New York (USA)


What is force?
Force doesn’t always refer to physical pressure. Perpetrators may use emotional coercion, psychological force, or manipulation to coerce a victim into non-consensual sex. Some perpetrators will use threats to force a victim to comply, such as threatening to hurt the victim or their family or other intimidation tactics.
- quote from the article: "Sexual Assault" by RAINN (USA)

​
What is consent?
Consent is defined as a voluntary agreement to do something. When it comes to sex (e.g. mutual masturbation, oral sex, vaginal sex, anal sex, sexting, other intimate contact, etc.), it’s important for everyone involved to give/receive enthusiastic consent. Enthusiastic consent means everyone is into what’s happening, and shows they’re ready through words and actions. Establishing enthusiastic consent before and throughout sexual activity means everyone is on the same page and having fun together. Remember, if consent is not given by everyone involved, it’s sexual violence.

… things like silence or a nod are not enough to establish consent.
… saying “yes” to one thing doesn’t imply “yes” to something else
​
… if you move on to something else, each person needs to consent again
- quotes from the article: "Consent: What it is and why it's important" by Kids Help Phone (Canada)


Some resources for information and support:
  • Kids Help Phone (Canada)
  • Klinic Community Health (Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada)
  • RAINN (USA)
  • ​The Power and Control Wheel (Intimate Partner Abuse and Violence). Originally developed in Duluth, MN, and sometimes further adapted by other groups. One example from the Government of Prince Edward Island, Canada.


I have always been worthy. Yet, when I was growing up there were two main factors that kept me from seeing the full extent of my worth. The chaotic neighbourhood I resided in for over a decade negatively impacted my formation of self. Then, from age fourteen to fifteen, I was abused by the guy I was dating. Growing up, I only had pockets of empathy around me, deep wells were elsewhere. I was grateful for visits to those wells as they provided essential rest and hope for me in my darkest seasons. I am grateful that wells of empathy have become far more abundant in my adult life. And I now feel worthy.


Read More
<<Previous
About | Connect | RSS
© Owl Tree Whimsy 2011 – 2023 is licensed under CC BY-NC-ND 4.0​

Picture
  • Recipes
  • Serial Boxes
  • Writing
    • Poetry
    • Reflections
    • Short Fiction